Over the last few years I have had to train myself to look at life in a positive way. At first I didn’t even realize I was doing anything other than living and reacting in the moment, but when things started to get exceedingly difficult, I found that looking for the small wins and small moments of joy were what got me through. It’s something that isn’t easy to do, and at the moment can…
Gratitude has become a buzzword in the last few years, the effects of practicing gratitude made to seem like the newest fad diet. That’s not to say I don’t appreciate the things that I have, that I am not blessed for life that I am able to live, but I don’t think we are utilizing it in the proper way. From a simple google search gratitude means a positive feeling of thankfulness for someone or…
I have found myself having the conversation about if I am limiting myself purposefully, or truly cannot do certain things. The conclusion that I have come to is that I am letting my excuses become my limitations. When it feels like I can’t push myself any further, I then just tell myself it is okay because of x,y, or z. According to google, the definition of an excuse is a reason to lessen the blame,…
I have felt trapped within myself for months, years, of my life. I feel the emotions just sitting behind a wall in my mind. I don’t allow them to trickle out organically, I don’t let my body release them naturally, I let them build and build until I am bursting at the seams and crying from the weight. I don’t know exactly why I am like this. I don’t have a traumatic story from childhood…
I wanted to start this series as a means of getting my story out there. I have been hard pressed to find stories similar to my own, and if I do then there usually is not enough background information (at least to satisfy my own curiosity). This is just part one in a multiple part series. I still don’t have the conclusion, and I still have more answers than questions, but I find it important…
By the time I was 13 I had been to more funerals than my friends have been to in their entire lives. Coming from a large Irish Catholic family it was normal, and shielding your children from the realities of a funeral was not an option; you went and you were there for your family. Granted, when I was little I didn’t understand much and all I knew was I had to dress up and…
For the majority of my life my self worth was tied to my appearance. I had no concept of being worthy or not outside of what I looked like- mainly how much I weighed. It is very cliche, and I am sure the majority of women have this same realization at some point in their life. Personally, it took me weighing my heaviest, looking and feeling my worst, to even begin to have a strong…
I’ve let fear become a familiar trap within my mind. It has permeated to just about every single aspect of my life and has held me back from growing and making necessary changes. I’ve masked it as just having anxiety, of just being anxious and needing everything to happen a certain way. In reality, I am simply just scared. Scared of the unknown, scared of my own feelings, scared of any sort of change. I’ve…
Age is just a number! That’s always what people say whenever you start getting older, a somewhat meaningless platitude that most don’t even think about. Tomorrow, I turn 27. The last day of Aquarius season, in the midst of winter, I’ve always loved this time of year. This year, one of the biggest emotions I am trying to grapple with is dread and disappointment. To put my feelings into context, and to give a bit…
Waking up in the morning has never been a strong suit of mine. I have always aspired to be a morning person, someone who wakes up with the sun, has a slow morning of coffee and reflection before starting the day. I am envious of those who seem to naturally wake up early- no alarm or grumbling and stumbling out of bed. My dad was like that, he was up before everyone else and had…